So...

I have been feeling pretty emotional recently, mixture of both joyous and saddening. I feel like I need to start thinking about my future more in depth. I can humbly admit that I am still very immature in many aspects.

I recently had a very respectable conversation with my ex-girlfriend. We both have definitely grown from when we seperated approximately a year ago. I am proud to say that even though we had our many arguments we still continue to be friends. She has taken her path with her new boyfriend and I have taken my own. This is what blossomed the urge for me to write this note.

I told her in our recent meeting this statement; "I ideally want my next girlfriend to be the woman of my life". That is what I desire but I cannot sulk in the ideals, rather branch out and take control of it. I heard this song by Joshua Radin, "I'd rather be with you" and it genuinely touched me current feelings.


Maybe, I just need to be bold...-Rusti